I am Vernon’s Heart to Heart

When's the last time you had a heart to heart?.. 
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...and with a stranger at that?..
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Recently?
Not recently?
Never?

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When's the last time you had a heart to heart by reading only?

With typed words only?

An infinite, clairvoyant session with a writer that you may be familiar with or may have just stumbled across?
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Recently?
Not recently?
Never?

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Well,
if you keep reading,
let's have a heart to heart,
me and you...
...or at least try, eh?

Let's chat, metaphysically,
like we have been doing for quite some time now. 

I need it,
and,
well, 
you need it.

So, quit being coy.
You do not have to do that around me.
Not anymore... 
...

Or,
I could be wrong.

Then again,
doubtful.
...

Who really knows in this exchange between me and you,
between unknown reader and slightly known writer.

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But,
for now,
let's roll.
Top down.
Cigarettes lit.
Sunglasses on.
Breeze in our hair. 

No one around for miles except me and you and whatever we want to do with this infinite bond...

*pushes PLAY on Chill Mix playlist*

*puts car into DRIVE*

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The things I type to you are things I tell myself from time to time.
.
You know that?
.

Or I think these things, even if I choose not to voice them.

And some of the thoughts - they linger, 
some more than others.

And the people,
most of them,
some of them,
you can tell just by looking at them.

I could tell just by looking in the mirror the other day,
myself,
a more aged reflexion than what used to be there.

A reflexion that has seen more things than its own projector. 
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..
.

And the people...

The people everywhere...

On the streets.
On the screens.
In the stores.
Overflowing the roads.

Here.
There.
Everywhere.
Anywhere.
...

All of us kids,
grown up into adults,
most of us not knowing what we are doing in this borrowed world,
figuring how to live life for the first time,
in an imperfect place meant to turn you into a copy of what it wants you to be if it can control you,
or,
worse yet,
turn you into something you were never meant to be in the first place.
...

And you can look at the people out there... ...most of them.
And you can feel it.
And you can see it.
And you can hear it.
...
 
It is tough out there,
in the world, 
isn't it?
...

Question?

What level of consciousness are you at, again?

I pray not level one still...

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not after what we know now...
.

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And I know you are tired.
Overlooked.
Burned to your last thread.
On edge, but composed. 
Confusingly irritated in the nonsense but patiently knowing in the common sense.

You look at the world and barely recognize the place you call home,
thanks to the elites, of course.

You are 'in' the world but not 'of' it.

You wonder how things became so eff'ed up and in such a short amount of time, the script of this modern day world seeming like it is coming from a C+ AI movie app that shows ads every seven seconds.

And sometimes you just stand there and wonder if all of this is really real or not -
a projection -
a simulation -
across many infinite timelines -
and here we are, stuck on this rock with these types of rulers and their failed leadership and their boring, sinister way of life.

...
if you feel like this from time to time - it's okay... 
you are not alone.
...

...
nature understands...
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And I know some of you are ready to give up. 

You tell yourself not to look behind you,
and,
most of the time, 
you do not,
but it is only standard that every life comes with a rear view mirror,
and, 
every now and then,
our eyes, mind, and soul do tend to wander to what is trying to keep up with us rather than what is waiting for us.
...

Yet, most of the people I ask, if they could time travel or have not yet discovered how to do it properly - nobody, I mean NOBODY, wants to go to the future anymore...

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...they desire the past...
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And it did not used to be like that...

It used to be that everybody wanted to go to the future...
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until now...

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Listen,
quit beating yourself up over the wrong things,
things that are not worth a one millimeter diastema of your energy.

Instead,
beat yourself with the right things,
things that give you happiness, peace, and completion,
and let those emotions fill you up and go straight through you.

Focus on the potential that each positive vibration gives you and only give your energy in places that deserve it. 

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You are special!
Okay!

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You are special!
Do you hear me?

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You are special!
Always have been.

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I know it is easy for me to say that or for you to doubt that,
myself included,
especially in today's world,
but try not to.

That is what they want so you will turn to them.
And the distractions are many.
So are the enemies.
And so are their arrows. 
As is their growing means of mind control. 
And the dark waves that try to wash out our inner light - they no longer come in waves but, instead, 
in floods.
In fires.
In fake, chemtrail lined skies.
In scrolling headlines of fear, war, rage, and genocide.
The idiocracy... ...so much idocracy, 

over what?
...

The allies are few,
but they exist.

Your greatest ally, besides God, is yourself, of course, salvation, and whatever Monkey Wrench Gang of anonymous people you would like to assemble with.
...

But you cannot lose heart.
Ever.
Even when it seems easier to do just that.
Because, in all honesty, is that not what they want?

For you to give up and turn to them for purpose, entertainment, and current events.
...

Hasn't enough un-prosecuted bloodshed already occurred or is this what we now do to keep the Prince of Darkness fed? 

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We did not come this far to quit now, soldier.

We can quit later.

After the battle has been won.

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And if you have decided to quit already,
guess what - 

I think it is time you believe in yourself and re-emerge into this everyday battle with the rest of us warriors.

'AWAKE, KNIGHT AND KNIGHT'ESS - PICK UP YOUR SWORD AND SHIELD...'
...

The front line has been taking a heavy hit,
and we could really use someone like you.
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I seem...
You seem...
We all seem...

but,
you seem uncertain,
and,
that is totally okay.

I am too...
..

You seem more impatient than usual.
That is okay and totally understandable.

I am too...
.. 

You feel like a stranger in your own land - 
I know -
and keep in mind - this did not just happen overnight.
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mAnDeLa eFfEct
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You are tired of failed politics and policies and open ended promises from both sides of the table, even people you know personally.

They have been lying for quite some time now,
for a price - of course...
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Everybody,
and I mean - EVERYBODY,
has one...

how many zeroes did you just think?

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You see people turning on people,
friends on friends,
family on family,
coworker on coworker,
stranger on stranger,
race on race,
nation on nation,
religion on religion,

all over what - a televised headline...
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a failed and boring elitist script...
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a psyop...
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all over what someone told you across a 'screen'...
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all these rules - and who are 'truly' making them?..
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money - the root of all what?..
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whoever is writing our script beyond our learned, textbooked borders - how truly incompetent they must be - and all those zeroes for what? - for them to be the dumbest people on Earth considering what ancient architecture looked like compared to the stack of cards we build now...

We may think we are the most advanced civilization known to man,
but I beg to differ considering... ...well, go look around for yourself and compare your current surroundings to real old world history... ...and not the Google version...

They built wooden ships and sailed through unknown seas and have pyramid shaped structures that are still in alignment with the stars above us...

...and the ancient architecture... carved out of mere stone... by hand?.. the temples... the tall stone steps... in the sides of mountains... still standing today?... and we visit them like they are some circus side show...

Us, well - we worry about updating our Apps on our little black boxes that are constantly surveilling us... ...WOW!..  
..
.

Your chest tightens.

You become unsettled about what they have turned the outside world into. 

They want you to have constant anxiety.
..
.

Better turn that WIFI and Bluetooth signal off, sugar pie.

Oh wait!
Another Flock camera. 

Let me just continue to drive by it and wonder what it is doing, without my permission, 
instead of cutting that SOB down.
...

I guess it is time to go back to a flip phone.

And memorizing phone numbers.

Or a landline.

Or carrier pigeon.

Or morse code...

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The feeds scroll up.
They scroll down.

The headlines scroll left, right, *blink*, *flash*,
'look at me', 'look at me', 'look at me'
'this is wrong', 'this is wrong', 'this is wrong',
you doom scroll to make sure this is true,
your breathing escalates,
your brain fires on all ends - all for what?..
anxious, anxious, anxious,
brain spinning circles around the circles that were already left a minute ago,
spinning, spinning, spinning,
the wheels of our brain,
the wheels of our heart,
the wheels of our soul,
distact, distract, distract,

and we wonder why we have nothing left inside our arrow and rock and bullet dented shell,
our armor subconsciously shaking its head at us for what we choose to ding ourself up with and it wondering how much more our bodies can take after one day of not believing in yourself...
...
..
.

And they WANT you to feel like this - the powers that be...

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So - go against the flow for a change. 

Believe in yourself,
completely and without question.

please!

for me.
for you.

because I need more people - like you - to do that...

the world needs more people - like you - to do that...

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..
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And, 
there is so much beauty in you,
whether you have chosen to hide it for the moment or not,
or maybe forever or not -
but,
please,
do not hide those beautiful vibrations inside your soul forever,
because the earth is starved of it - beauty like yours,
and you need not worry about what others think,
and you must keep your chin high - even if you have to lower it from time to time to rest it,
and never let them see the fire waver,
in victories - because there will be victories,
in losses - because there will be losses,
in draws - because there will be those too,

and,
persevere,
because it is in you,
whether you see it or not.
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Persevere always -
in good times and most certainly in bad.
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Dance -
when the sun is shining or if it is raining.
You do not have to splash in the puddles all of the time,
but something tells me that inner child might want you to.
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Believe in yourself or in whatever else you choose to -
even when people try to convince you otherwise or when the world gives you a thousand reasons on why to change your mind and adapt to the millionth version of 'whatever' they deem necessary or worthy.
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Love - 
that's the tricky one, huh?
Blind most of the time, maybe,
but, 
boy,
when she does start to see clearly and she wraps her arms around you
and you know, in this place, you can finally rest for a minute -
what a wonderful feeling,
especially when the reciprocity is honest, genuine, and pure in heart.
The greatest of these is this,
yes,
and I think all of us spiritual beings know why.
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Dream, dream, dream,
even when your eyes are open,
and never let it evaporate when others are too scared to see what you already know because this world is going to send you countless reasons on why you should give up but deep down inside, when you feel that little stir, that little tickle - your intuition, God-given - you lift yourself out of the mud and you push forward - the rain now becoming a shower in which you shed off the old and put on the new... an immovable force, forged by the fires of this life's trials and tribulations - an imagination far more deadly than anyone's perceived reality... 

...guaranteed...
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This is you.
This is me.

Stripped down to the skin and bones.

Looking to make it back to a garden we were kicked out of a long time ago... ...for simply not listening...

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Imagine that!
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But failure does not determine us.

It will not!

No, no, no!
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It is what we do with the failure.

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Hey...
..
.

You are going to be okay...
..
.

I know, I know,
'that's easy for me to say',
huh?
...

But for someone who has not always had it easy,
I can say,
'the hardest days of your life do not determine your current timeline and the easier days that lie ahead...'

and,
and,
for someone to say their life has always been easy -
have they really even lived?
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I mean really...
Think about it...

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No matter how much they try to disconnect us like minded warriors.

No matter what distractions they throw our way.

No matter how many fake issues they want to make real.

No matter how many real issues they want to make fake.

No matter how many Roman Circuses they build around us. 

No matter how many things they try to throw in front of our face in plain sight just to see how dumb we are.

Amidst all the control mechanisms out there - 

you keep pushing forward.

Keep being you.
Keep loving yourself.
Keep that chin up, if at all possible, and only lower it around those you trust or around just yourself - alone.
Keep yourself in the top five on your 'take care of' list.
Keep dreaming.
Keep inspiring.
Keep being unbiased. 
Keep your own contradictions at bay.
Keep your own vibrations at bay.
Recognize Hollywood and all the Celebrities for what they are and treat them as such.  
Keep your distance from those that seek to destroy or hurt you in any way whatsoever or who only tell a 'piece' of the story instead of the whole thing.

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break down the idols.

we need Balance.

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What goodness you keep, though, you must share sparingly to keep the regenerative supply fresh - so share your gifts wisely.

Share your love with the right ones but in a way they may have never felt it before and only with those who will hold it in high regard.

Share your faith - because we need this now, more than ever, if you have any or do not have any or are just beginning.

Share your dreams, subconscious or not. Your imagination. Inspire others because, in their darkest hours, they will remember you helping them and, in that connection, a beautiful rift starts to interconnect parallels that bring you closer and closer to your own manifestation - brings you closer with those that you deem worthy,
the ones who do not make you feel uncomfortably vulnerable, 
the ones who you trust because they have shown you their true colors - share pieces of yourself with them and interconnect the mysteries of this world.

Share your beauty and let others share theirs. 

Share your ability to notice things in a head down, doom scrolling world.

Share kind words, and, and, receive them in retrospect, even if your bandaged heart has conditioned itself not to listen to them.

Share your light, even if it is dim, because there is a good chance someone else's is almost about to go out... ...for good...

Share genuine moments with people and be IN the moment with them. 

Let time tick by slower. 

Put the phone down. 

Take the watch off.

Moments turn into memories and, by God, haven't they already stolen enough of those from us already?

Quit looking 'to' something and look 'within'.
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You... are so capable... of so many great things... and are so capable... of becoming so endless... the infinite... the void... the pull of that certain, special kind of gravity... between timelines... each one of our choices... piloting us through oblivion... until we become that which we stare long enough into...

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You... are the most amazing thing on this planet... and if anything has ever convinced you otherwise... that thing is a liar... and each movement you make... make it with precision... because there is a future version of you... rooting for you... loving you from afar... hoping to meet the version it knows you can become...

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You... deserve so many things from this life... and I doubt you will get all of them... but I hope you do... and I hope it makes you happy... finally... maybe... as long as we remember all of those who went before us and never had such words to re-ground us in the moment of the 'now'...

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You are the only person that can be you.

It is your calling.

Sober and vigilant.

Armor on - you become unstoppable.

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You become who you were always meant to be,
wanderer or not. 

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Hey!

You.

I do not know if you know this yet,
but you are going to make it.

ARE.

I think...

But that choice is yours.
..

And everything you were destined to be,
you were already born with.

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So,
maybe,
just maybe,
it is time for you to focus on you for a minute or two.

Be deliberate with your time from here on out,
if you have not learned this yet by now.

There are people worthy of loving out there in the world.

There are people worthy of sharing your time with.

There are some people worth trusting.

There are some who are just 'worth it' in general.
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The one thing you do not have time for is being mistreated in an already harsh and cruel world, especially when the parts to love are getting harder and harder to find... 
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Chin up, 
warrior. 

You will make it.

Because we have to,
now,
considering what lurks out there in the supposed 'real world',
if a term has ever meant so less to me.
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And if you feel alone -
it is okay. 
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel forgotten -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel unloved -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel ignored -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like a stranger in an unknown land -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel like there is no way out -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel like you need to cry -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel like you need to get angry -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you shake your head at things, constantly -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like winning the lottery and finally disappearing -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like eating a chocolate covered creme puff -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel like questioning everything you thought was childhood truth -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like your patience is nonexistent -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like all of the superhero's are dead -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these. 

And if you feel like you should not be feeling a feeling -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

And if you feel like someone or something is always trying to get something by you -
it is okay.
That is normal in times like these.

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The only thing that is not normal in times like these -

normality.

and,
most NPC people.

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The truth IS out there.

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Heart to heart,

tired finger-typed words to world-strained eyes,

writer to reader,

soul to soul -

we must fight our tiredness with perseverance,
we must create loopholes where they do not expect them,
we must be courageous when the odds are against us,
we must bring to the table that which they have forgotten,
we must slip between timelines when the moment calls for it,
we must never lose hope, even when we do,
we must eat a chocolate covered creme puff every full moon,
we must share love with those who share it back and some who do not,
we must balance the scales - even if they see us or not,
we must take the transitional lenses off of our perception,
we must love, in the dark and in the light,
we must combat our indecisiveness with firmly planted decisions...

we must.

we must..

we must... 

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Nobody warned us that life would be this... ...lifey...
or,
maybe they did
and we were just too distracted to pay attention to the details,
or maybe they were just following the lies that were fed to them and conditioned to believe, just as we were - their wise sayings and forgotten histories...
..

And here we are...

...sitting in a mud puddle...

...looking up...

...at the rain...
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If you want it,
do you go and get it or do you keep thinking about it...

If you do not want it,
do you immediately self preserve or do you let that 'it' linger around?..
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Do you even know what you want anymore?

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See what they are doing?

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A program with a program for the program of the program and the programmer could not be further from what all of us truly need...

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Direction is greater than speed,
yes,
but indecisiveness is the wine of the fool.

Procrastination... (why are we all waiting?..)

...to become what you were always destined to be so you can finally ride the wave and connect with this world the way you were meant to -

naturally...
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Whatever you were meant to be - access it, 
filter the information,
and only listen to people whose advice you would take. 

Filter the nonsense of the world.
(and filter you will.)

Filter your new friend AI and all its generated images.
(and filter you will as it slowly brings more and more confusion to an already confused world.) 
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..
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So,
where do you honestly want to go?

Whatever you answer with first - roll don't scroll!
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Who do you honestly want to be?

Whatever you answer with first - roll don't scroll!
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Even more important - when do you honestly want to be?

Past?
Present?
Future?

Whatever you answer with first - roll don't scroll!
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You are special and possess a unique gift.

Now, what are you going to do with it?

What you answer with first - roll don't scroll!
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They are going to find a way to get to you,
one way or another,
because all you are to them is a battery under constant surveillance.

And I hope that hurts your feelings!

Because it needs to!

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The only thing you need to worry about is -
how hard are you going to make it for them to do that, even when they do all of these things without your consent?
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..
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I asked you at the beginning of this post and I'll ask you again at the end of it - right now...

'When's the last time you had a heart to heart with a stranger?'

'Recently?'
'Not recently?'
'Never?'

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well now,
I think that question has a different answer now,
huh?

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Hope it was worth it.

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Good luck!

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