I am truly blessed, regardless of current events, regardless of my bank account, regardless of the weather, regardless of regardless. I am happy, regardless of my mistakes, regardless of my past, regardless of my overcomplicating things, regardless of regardless. What are you, regardless of regardless? You can get sad, regardless of your joy, regardless of your hopefulness, regardless of your miracles bestowed, regardless of regardless. You can be emotional, regardless of your lack thereof, regardless of your impulsivity, regardless of your re-grounding, regardless of regardless. Why are you, regardless of regardless? We are in this together, regardless of their subliminal division of us, regardless of our subliminal division of we, regardless of my subliminal division of me, regardless of regardless. We are in this together, regardless of race, regardless of political status, regardless of social caste, regardless of religion, regardless of orientation, regardless of nationality, regardless of regardless. Where are you, regardless of regardless? Time always amazes me, regardless of its quickness, regardless of its mind games, regardless of its never-ending, regardless of regardless. Time sometimes upends me, regardless of the confusion, regardless of the complicated, regardless of the understanding, regardless of the regardless. When are you, regardless of regardless? ... You know what means the world to me, regardless of regardless? Everything would be too cliche of an answer, huh, so why not provide a pleased elaboration? I appreciate honest affection. Real life attraction. The arithmetic of love. The language of lovers. The dividends of work. The collision of thought. I enjoy random texts from friends and unscheduled visits from family members, my soul lighting up regardless of how dim it may appear. I savor my warm cup of coffee combined with a good sunrise or an early morning flurry of tiny white flakes falling from the sky. Regardless of regardless, no matter what shape my pantry is in, it is a blessing to have one in the first place. I appreciate living in a great nation that they are trying to depreciate on a constant basis. I enjoy scrolling on social media and seeing my lists' version of what art means to them while taking a break from my own. I love cooking Saturday morning breakfast. It gets me through my week, every week, until my dream becomes my job, if it ever does, hope battling doubt since the dawn of man. Regardless of regardless, these things make my heart vibrate. I honor observing a true mother's love for her child, and I can understand us questioning God if a parent loses a child or a child loses a parent early on in their life. You cannot have a relationship with something or someone unless you ask questions, regardless of regardless, right? I respect nature, and enjoy watching the birds eat from my bird feeders, especially if cold weather is on the way or fresh snow has fallen. I miss having a last day of school before a summer break because nobody warned us in high school that grown up life was going to be, well, not as fun as the television made it out to be. Regardless of regardless, maybe technology is not the answer and we need to get back to appreciating grandma's handmade flour bread instead of some strangers pin on a board, no matter how delicious some of the pinned recipes turn out to be. I wish we could go back to the days when it was harder for just anyone with a cell phone to become famous or infamous, depending on our ever-changing perspective, even though I do enjoy sitting on the can and watching everyone else's recorded blunders. I do not like being angry, or agitated, or unsettled, or disturbed, or cornered, and I do not think anyone likes being those things, except for a couple of women I know and avoid at all costs. I like the calm after the storm. I like finding balance. I like the settling effect of being free, feeling free, and remaining free. I like a balanced scale. I like giving just as much as I like taking. I like like, love love, enjoy enjoy, and hate hate. I adore winter and all its beauty and I wish I could wear fingerless gloves, thick jackets, and heavy clothes all year long. I loathe hot showers, Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays, and salvation from the worst parts of myself that shouldn't exist but do, because, after all, I'm a flawed human, unlike everyone else. Right? I remember the nostalgia of hearing Creed's first album for the first time. If that doesn't tattle on me then nothing will, and I continue to hold good music in very high standards to this day. Regardless of regardless, if Aladdin's lamp was real, what would you, honestly, wish for, and more wishes is not a choice, you deep philosopher, you. I love self discovery, the journey it takes us on, and the people we meet along the way, as well as the ones who mysteriously slip through our fingers. My mind wanders, and, I think if I could stop time, when would I have done it, and if the consequence was that we could never restart it, when would I actually hit that button, because it can be painful watching those that you love age gracefully. They say having kids changes things, and I wonder if my parents thought the same thing about me as I interrupted their prime years then grew up way too fast for them to stomach. Regardless of regardless, the most treasured things in our possession is, without a doubt, family, friends, precious memories, and the future, nostalgic ones that are yet to be made. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, no matter what I think, no matter what I type, no matter what I create, no matter what I forge, no matter what I record, no matter what I battle, no matter what I win, no matter what I lose, no matter what I gain, no matter what I what, forever will always be... forever... and... forever is a long time... and... I'm okay with that... ...even when I try to convince myself that I'm not, regardless of regardless!
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