Teardrops

A tear that is wiped away -
is it less important than
one that falls?

My friend once told me,

"the only time I am happy
is when I'm asleep,"

and 
every time I readjust 
my rearview mirror
and 
see myself,
or 
stare at my reflection
as I shave my face,
or 
gaze at my image in 
any device that catches
my doppelgänger off-guard,
I think about the way he felt.

Asleep.
Sound off.
Goodnight.

A tear that careens down 
our cheek and leaps off
the cliffside of our chin -
is it more satisfying than
one that does not get
the chance to do so?

My sister once told me,

"all I want is 
for you to be happy,"

and 
when I scroll through 
my family photo album,
through all the birthdays
and 
holidays 
and 
special visits,
I start to wish 
the same thing for her
and 
wonder if the future 
will have more of my saved 
past memories in it, 
a wishful thought that
I hope is granted. 

Happy.
Sound on.
Good morning. 

A tear that is batted
with some type of cloth -
is it less important 
than one that makes it 
to the corner of your mouth 
and you taste life 
for what it truly is - salty.

My father once told me,

"a rut is nothing more but
a two sided grave,"

and 
I've tried to stay away from 
them as much as I possibly can,
some successfully,
some not,
and 
I can only hope I have made
him proud 
and 
carried on what was 
programmed in my DNA. 

Rut.
Muted.
High noon.

A tear that is thumbed away
by the unwashed finger
of a friend -
is it more important than one
that you fight back?

My mother always told me,

"you are special,"

and 
I'm left wondering
if I could ever go back to
being fourteen 
and 
naive
and 
hiding out in my room,
a steeled walled palace
where nothing could ever 
hurt me because dad was
rocking in his living room recliner
and
mom was
at the stove in the kitchen,
making the best
chicken and pastry
the galaxy has ever seen. 

Special.
Listen.
Good evening.

Teardrops, 
liquid emotion waving
goodbye to a way we felt 
in the past
as we say hello 
to a future
way of seeing life
and 
feeling life
and 
experiencing life like it was
meant to be experienced... 
..
with eyes wide open,
...
happy,
...
no ruts,
...
coming home,
being happy,
or 
moving away
and 
taking little
pieces of our upbringing 
with us
wherever we may go,
even if we end up
where we first 
started off -
at home.

Teardrops.

Are they wasted
if we remain
to be the same person
we were 
before
we released them?

The answer is simple.

...

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Where To Go From Here? – vernontalks – "going to the edge and back, one word at a time."

In the last podcast of vernontalks Season 2, I welcome everyone back after a summer hiatus and reveal intimate details about the premiere of my second short film titled "Inside Out", the ending sequel to my first short film, "Upside Down". (both films can be located on my YouTube page '3 Castl3s Film').   After a year in which I : severely injured my foot in a work related accident in March, sold our home in July and moved a state away for a better job opportunity, then moved us back due to certain issues that arose and me securing a better job for me and my family back in our home state, needless to say I have a lot of things to chat about and discuss when it comes to life and its curveballs.  I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way and can only imagine the stories all of you could share with me.   Not only do I inspire myself by getting some verbal weight off my shoulders, but I hope my level headed revelations have some way of inspiring others who may be listening to my words.  I ask myself 'where to go from here?' and seriously contemplate out loud where that direction may be me for my life and my art (vernonwrites.com).  Where does destiny leads us if we let her? I guess there's only one way to find out.  I appreciate all of you. I hope all of your dreams are coming true. I hope you have great mental health and are in a place in your life where you are happy and content. Your time means the world to me, and I hope you never, ever feel like you are walking alone in this life.  You are not.  Trust me!

1. Where To Go From Here? 21:06
2. Don't Look Down 35:04
3. Going Forward 19:24
4. My Short Film Premiere 14:32
5. I'm Not Happy 11:33
6. Dreamcatchers 10:17
7. Make A Night Out 27:23
8. She's Far From Typical 18:37
9. Bunnies, Bulls, and Bathtubs 13:01
10. Southern Shadows Gothic 27:00